Incredible how someone else's words can describe how I feel so well:

Sometimes I wish I was brave, I was I was stronger, I wish I could feel no pain, I wish I was young, I wish I was shy, I wish I was honest, I wish I was you not I

'Cause I feel so mad, I feel so angry, I feel so callous, so lost, confused, again. I feel so cheap, so used, unfaithful, lets's start over, let's start over.

Sometimes I wish I was smart, I wish I made cures for how people are, I wish I had power, I wish I could lead, I wish I could change the world for you and me

I feel so mad, I feel so angry, I feel so callous, so lost confused, again, I feel so cheap, so used, unfaithful, let's start over

Let's start over

~Box Car Racer

I gave me away, and you let me down, no use decieving neither of us want to be alone

~Damien Rice

Hope is so much closer to beauty than sorrow I think I'll leave and leave self pity to die reflection is always brighter than shadow -love is in the air tonight, so just breathe

~Blindside

I can't wake up to these reminders of who I am: a failure at everything....19 going on extinct, I know my place it's nowhere you should roam

~Fall Out Boy

Do you care if I don't know what to say? will you sleep tonight? will you think of me? will I shake this off, pretend it's all okay? That there's someone out there who feels just like me?   There is

~Box Car Racer

Show me how it ends, it's alright show me how defenseless you really are satisfied and empty inside well that's alright let's give this another try

~Breaking Benjamin

We all flirt with the tinniest notion of self conclusion in one simplified motion you see the trick is that you're never supposed to act on it no matter how unbearable the misery gets

~The Spill Canvas

Currently Listening Commit This to Memory By Motion City Soundtrack Together We'll Ring In The New Year see related

ok...i'm supposed to be writing a paper...but i can't!! it's 15 pages and everyone around me is hanging out and....i'm stuck in this room....so...i'm updating my xanga.

you know, i thought for some reason i was becoming popular or something cuz two updates ago i got like 30 comments, which definetily is a record for me...but on my last one i only got like seven....so i'm not popular after all.

i miss sunday

i'm making new friends, like terra, she's very cool. it's been SO nice hanging out with Beth lately! this year is going to be good. except for school and work...oh wait....that's my whole life! ha...just kidding

i miss my little sis..and my parents. i want the new nickelback song SO bad! it's called photograph and it's so good....but i can't find it anywhere to buy online...and the cd doesn't come out till october...bummer

i'm being too random so i'm done...i don't like random posts, i like inspiring posts, but i'm not really inspired right now

ok well, back to writing ecology paper and how we are destroying the earth.

have a good one...thanks for reading

oh, i'll leave you with a Eyes Catch Fire lyrics (awesome band by the way)

as i let the cold surround me i realize we're drowning no sirens sounding will we ever be the same? you ripped my heart out of my chest, will you steal my dying breath? well i have a solution...i'll just turn around instead (remember this) so you can put the knife in clean, how long will we be antipodes in this world, and now it's a cullet in my mind these words are turning into stone, with chains, are dragging me below, to let our stiches dissolve and fill our wounds with salt

i guess i should tell you...that i need you right now

to tell me the reasons for your lies so i can understand and finally breathe again so give me a reason for my life so i can know why i die each time you tie these hands and lead me to the water's edge don't say goodbye don't say goodnight and if you think that this is over you've got another thing comin up around the bend, one more time i'll whisper in your ear

Currently Listening 2005 Warped Tour Compilation By Various Artists Start Wearing Purple by Gogol Bordello see related

i'm kind of sick of xanga...i've been trying to update for a few weeks now and it wouldn't work....probably cuz of Grace's gay internet rules. i just took two weeks off work...now i'm back....

listening to a song that's telling me to start wearing purple. depressed cuz i haven't seen any of my friends (except Jen and my brother) forever.

that's about all i got to say. i got a little tan which makes me happy. i really am sick of xanga. so i'm done...for today..till i like it again sometime.